How the Senses Can Help Moods

Central Oregon Sunset

Central Oregon Sunset 2014

This evening as I drove home the sunset was spectacular. Where I live I’m fortunate to see many beautiful such events. But tonight the sunset seemed even more grand. Larger more defined than I’m used to seeing. I pulled off to the side of our country road and attempted to capture the beauty with my iPhone camera. But it just didn’t do it justice. This sunset had me mesmerized.

sunset_newI couldn’t help but FEEL GOOD for viewing this event. Sounds silly, but my sense of eyesite had overtaken my dull pain and changed my mood from exhaustion and wanting to find the nearest bed to standing in the middle of nowhere trying to focus my little phone on the beautiful colors. What pain? I HAVE to take a photo to share with friends & family! Soon the sun had gone down and the vibrant colors faded. But my good mood didn’t. I looked forward to getting home to check the photos on my phone.

Had I gotten any good photos? Did they capture just how beautiful & special tonight’s sunset was to….to me anyway?

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They were Epic for a Reason

Oh No You Don't!

Oh No You Don’t!

I live in a city where “cover bands” fill the pages of the city’s cool, groovy weekly free newspaper. Yes, no argument here, we are a cool city they say. They even have a cable television show about our city that represents its quirkiness to a “T.” But, I’ve had this problem with our “coolness.” It is that their musicians also feel pretty cool here and there are hundreds, HUNDREDS of cover bands vying for a place to play their tributes to whomever they sound sorta, kinda like when they first formed their band in that guy’s garage and asked each other what songs and bands they like. “Hey, dude! That totally reminded me of when the Scorpions dropped their first track on their third album! Yeah! That riff you just played! We sounded just like the Scorpions” and thus begins another Scorpions cover band. With homemade CD’s to follow.

But, some bands or musicians aren’t meant to be covered. I mean, there will never be another vocalist, guitarist, bassist, drummer who will sound or play like he/she did. Leave IT BE! Don’t even remake it by adding some cowbell or, “hey we have a female singing the original male vocalist’s part! Check us out!”

Not in our city! We are free to be who we want to be and if we play it, people will come! I’m an amateur musician at best and even if I knew I could play one or two songs from my favorite band, I don’t dare do it. Unless I’m in the privacy of my own living room and my dog is affectionately staring at me.

Bands like, Queen, Rush, Led Zeppelin, Alice In Chains (ok I’m telling my age here) should not be messed with or covered. Tribute? Wear a shirt with the band’s name on it. Now that’s a tribute. Do not make crazy posters and tack them up all over the city stating, LIVE! One Night Only! The BEST Rush Tribute Band EVER…. XYZ!!! No Cover Charge! Just come listen, please??

The original is and was the best. Their music was, as you say, EPIC, for a reason….they are unique and unbelievably talented. Don’t GO there. Enough said.

Save us all a dangerous drive downtown and $50 in drinks, just let it be

Getting On With LIFE

OK so I have Lupus SLE. This has redefined how I live my life and what I do daily.
For 30 years, every day I saddled horse s that I owned (60+ horses on our ranch) and trained and exercised about four of them a day. We raised quarter horses on a ranch. I competed in horse events since 4th grade (I’m not saying how long ago!)
I had a full time job in the judicial department as well.
I had to feed, doctor, take care of all these horses. Travel long distances to shows. I have one daughter and when when she was in high school she competed in High School rodeo . Yes! Our schools here have rodeo clubs. They can earn excellent scholarships.
So needless to say, I was BUSY.
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Hospitals ROCK! Not

Hospitals Rock! Not really....

Hospitals Rock! Not really….

Well, I’m in what doctor’s call a “lupus flare” meaning my disease is active.  I’ve had two week long hospital stays in the last six months. What fun! The second hospital stay was a big surprise. I simply went to my scheduled follow up with a gastro doc, and four hours later a nurse had CALLED ME A CAB to take me to the hospital ACROSS THE STREET! They wouldn’t allow me to walk over there. Needless to say I felt pretty silly. I barely got there in time to be admitted. No one was with me, so I wandered around with a blank look and my “file” from the doctor with the admission info. I got someone’s attention, she admitted me, said I was in luck, there was ONE bed available! Yes, I felt SO LUCKY! YES! I’m in the hospital and not sure why?

I got this huge room, great view. But the TV didn’t work, the nurse call button didn’t work, the sink stopped up and whoever forgot to tell the nurses that a new patient was just admitted so I laid on the big bed, arms folded behind my head, legs crossed, staring out the window when BAM! The door swings open and a nurse arrives with stuff hanging from her like a stethoscope, tape, cell phone, glasses, name tag pushing an IV stand with a bag of something swinging back and forth. “Hello! My name is (??? I can’t remember her name) and I’ll be your nurse for ten more minutes. At 7pm there will be a staff change.” Ok, thank you for that info….why am I in here again? “Hum let me look, ok, fluids, tests, pain meds” ok, why will I need pain meds? “Because you are going to have an invasive endoscopy to see why the CT scan you had three months ago showed you esophagus and stomach had masses in them” they do? I did. OH I did not know that. Well ok then. Please don’t forget I’m here like last time. They forgot and I spent seven days eating on ice chips.”really?!! Just ice chips?! Why?” You tell me. Naw, it was because I had an acute pancreatitis attack. So I guess I couldn’t eat or drink. this is just a very small tid bit of how lupus effects your life. You become pretty independent. Because lupus SLE attacks your pancreas, kidneys, stomach, heart, brain, skin, whatever.  Please excuse my poor grammar & typing. As long as you can read the words it should be ok. I have nothing against hospitals, doctors,  nurses, etc. I just don’t like the bills that POUR in after the. Then phone calls that begin when you aren’t prompt in paying. Lupus is the gift that keeps on giving! Gift? Sort of…. :/

I’m Lost….

This should be easy, correct? But not for me & it has nothing to do with lupus. I just can’t figure out how to add tags.  I used to be a web designer!! I’ve lost it :/

oh well, I will figure it out.