At some point in your life you learn to listen to that voice inside that gives everyone the benefit of the doubt and you weed through the BS you allow people to put you through. It’s important when you are on the quest to beat your illness. You either lay down and let sickness take over or you fight. I decided to fight. Because I know I can get better or at least better at dealing with a chronic illness. With SLE, my attitude each day impacts the severity of my symptoms. STRESS and SLE don’t mix. STRESS and I don’t get along. Whether it’s Lupus SLE, Cancer, MS whatever, STRESS is not your friend and the fight or flight instinct becomes fight or faint. Not everyone has the ability to quiet the mind, meditate, slow themselves down. I know I don’t and wish I could. My brain just doesn’t operate that way (another story) and I don’t want to take medications to slow who I am down. Continue reading
God is the ULTIMATE artist. Creating unmatched beauty for His Children. I’m a child of THE most High God. It is this that strengthens my soul, gives me hope and peace everlasting!
Well, since I’ve found myself slowed down by Lupus, I also found myself full of anxiety. Wanting to rush around again but stuck in a body that won’t move and has no intention of moving around anytime soon. However, the great thing is, I discovered mesmerizing sunsets viewable from the places I live and visit frequently. The kind that draw a person in and forces the senses to focus on the beauty of something out of our control…. the sky paintings every morning and night.
Believe me, this is a challenge for me. To focus long enough to notice something and once noticed, the intense focusing on everything “that something” has to offer in the ten minutes God is painting it. Changing the colors, the patterns, intensity. HOW do those clouds and that sky go from a light, plain blue to a spectacular slow motion movie that forces me to sit still and feel better? No drug I’m prescribed has been able to give me ten minutes of positive energy, hope, pain relief like these sunsets. The medication eases the pain, but not the heart & soul. For me, seeing this beauty helps my soul. A God who can create such beauty in a world gone mad can heal what hurts me and if not heal, He helps me through it. You just can’t lose when you believe in a higher power, that there is more to this time we spend on earth than the hills & valleys we find ourselves in. That being a kind, compassionate, loving person is so much better than filling ourselves with bitterness.
So to summarize, when people ask me how I get through the tough times? I have to say my Faith, Humor, sunrises and sunsets.
Sharing my secret solice
God really knows how to wake me up in a good mood!!
Recently, the sunrises and sunsets where I live have been spectacular.
I’m not a photographer, but I just had to grab my iPhone and do my best to capture the moments. These photos don’t do the real sight justice. It was almost magical, a calming time for me. The colors and perspective were unbelievable. I’ve realized the beauty around me finally. It only took 40 years.
For so many years all I wanted to do is get out of town! Leave, go find myself in this boring place. It’s normal though, and I did leave and live elsewhere. Followed my dreams, worked jobs I loved, lived in areas of the country I enjoyed. But NOTHING compares to the views I have here where I was raised. I understand why my parent’s always called this “God’s Country.”
This evening as I drove home the sunset was spectacular. Where I live I’m fortunate to see many beautiful such events. But tonight the sunset seemed even more grand. Larger more defined than I’m used to seeing. I pulled off to the side of our country road and attempted to capture the beauty with my iPhone camera. But it just didn’t do it justice. This sunset had me mesmerized.
I couldn’t help but FEEL GOOD for viewing this event. Sounds silly, but my sense of eyesite had overtaken my dull pain and changed my mood from exhaustion and wanting to find the nearest bed to standing in the middle of nowhere trying to focus my little phone on the beautiful colors. What pain? I HAVE to take a photo to share with friends & family! Soon the sun had gone down and the vibrant colors faded. But my good mood didn’t. I looked forward to getting home to check the photos on my phone.
Had I gotten any good photos? Did they capture just how beautiful & special tonight’s sunset was to….to me anyway?