INSPIRATION FRUSTRATION

Taking advice from Ben Huberman at The Daily Post I decided to start rhyming.

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INSPIRATION FRUSTRATION

Inspiration all around
Turn on the smile, forget the frown.
But like every day there’s only pain,
Do I have to inspire or I won’t gain?

Gain the understanding, I need a hug.
Gain respect of this elite club.
Where pain & malaise is your daily routine,
And being inspiring makes you the queen.

It’s OK to have a Bad Day
Do I dare share that here,
or just hold it near, keep it
Together, full of good cheer.

I’m tired of smiling
Through my pain.
I’m tired of happy quotes
Because, today’s a bad day
Lupus Sucks, that’s my quote.

For once I’d like to say
this lupus sucks.
For once I’d leave out the “aww shucks!
It’s ok, I’m fine, I can beat this
In time!
I’m fine, give me time, it’s just a bout of bad luck”

So I write my feelings in
Draft form.
Of wrenching in pain, that’s my norm.
This day is BAD, no smile you’ll see.
Along with no hope, no happy, no end will there be?

Of suffering with an illness that has no cure.
That’s not inspiring, that’s for sure.

I don’t hit Publish
Only Save will I choose.
And keep it private to look at when days are unsure.
To remind me I don’t have to
always be strong,
and crying from frustration is not wrong.

Then wait for the next day I can smile and inspire.
Hit publish, look at me!
I got this! I’m a warrior, no frown will you see.

But the truth of this matter
My experience will tell me
A smile sends endorphins
that help me to be
A far better version of the person that’s me.

I have to admit, my first try at rhyming sounds a lot like Cat in the Hat. Maybe it’s because I read to my grandkids so much?

2 thoughts on “INSPIRATION FRUSTRATION”

    1. Thank you 💜 I can write to myself or maybe a note to someone but I’ve never been able to put my thoughts into words. I seem to be pouring it out now. Hopefully I get it allll out soon! But I feel pretty safe here.

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